the confessional

“Like a whore,” he blandly ventured. “First, I did it for my own pleasure.
Then I did it for the pleasure of my friends. And now — I do it for money.”

The Intimate Notebooks of George Jean Nathan, 1932

november 12, 2022. 12:17.

mood: indifferent

music: belaya noch' by forum

it is always the first entry that is the most difficult to write...

well, i suppose i should write about how i feel. no surprise here: i feel horrible. this week has actually been pretty productive; i managed to get a programming assignment done, as well as some tasks in my english class that would've gotten me a good grade, had they been graded (which they, unfortunately, were not.)

right now i am drinking a monster energy ultra - an immaculate beverage. i'm not too fond of carbonated drinks, admittedly, but monsters are always nice. after i'm finished, i will go take a shower. i have acquired soap that has a wonderful scent, and i find that i am very excited to perform the perilous task of showering. (it is perilous to me because of executive dysfunction.)

and then...well, i don't know. i'll see how the day goes.


november 13, 2022. 03:21.

mood: tired

music: svartesmeden og lundamyrstrollet by windir

i woke up at around 00:28. this is not surprising in the slightest; i take medication to help me sleep, but it makes me wake up at ungodly hours afterwards. it is also very cold, but that is to be expected.

to give you all an update regarding yesterday's endeavours, not only did i shower, i also managed to cut my bangs. i kind of look like jane from breaking bad (though i would hesitate to make that comparison; i look nothing like her otherwise). i'm glad i was able to complete these tasks even though i was tired and didn't feel like it. the aforementioned soap made it a hundred times less perilous, however.

that is all i have to say at the moment. maybe i'll edit this entry later...

oh, now that i think about it, i do have some plans for today. i am planning on visiting the local graveyard, then dying dyeing my hair. re-dyeing to be more specific, it's been a good two years.

i'm excited.

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